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Thursday, 17 January 2019

Time (poem)

Been struggling to sleep over the past week; insomnia has always been an on-and-off problem with me. I was awake all night and wrote this around seven in the morning.

Time continues to fade into itself
Once my friend; now my mocker
She scorns me, laughs at tomfoolery
Questioning; ‘why lie awake and ponder?
Preen at the screen in loathsome hunger and thirst
Aching for a chance to dissolve?’

Wednesday, 16 January 2019

On 'It'

In 2015 I read a book called 'On Writing' by Stephen King, aware that this man was one of the most prolific fiction writers out there. However, I was also aware he wrote horror, and being a scaredy-cat I was too afraid to read any of his books. But I did want to read something by him so began to research his non-scary stories, and later that year purchased 11/22/63, one of the best books I've ever read. Since then I've read a great deal of his works, including some of the alleged 'scariest' like Misery, Carrie, and It, which I just finished.

Friday, 11 January 2019

Why I dislike my species

It's after four in the morning here on this wonderful island of Great Britannia. I'm three-quarters of the way through my next novel, a YA coming-of-age novel that will be my third published book (second fiction book). Simultaneously I've been applying for jobs in retail so I can fund the cost of editing when my book is ready to go through that stage. Here's why I don't like humans.

Tuesday, 1 January 2019


I grew up feeling inadequate around my peers. I didn't know how to behave or how to 'fit in', and would often imitate other people's behaviour or try and lose myself in another person in order to feel like I belonged. My levels of social awareness were not the best despite my (often) pretence. You're supposed to learn how to act around your peers in childhood, and the 'lessons' I learned were far from fabulous.

Sunday, 23 December 2018

Book Review: Redemption by Mike Schlossberg

Asher Maddox wakes up one morning to find himself on board a space ship. He is there with several other young people aged sixteen to twenty. None of them know how they got there or what is going on, but they learn that they have been selected to save Earth from a deadly virus known as Spades.
(Review does not contain spoilers).

Saturday, 15 December 2018

2018: An Ode to Literature

Literature. That was some good shit. So said the character of 'God' in John Niven's The Second Coming, a book I read recently. (I love Kill Your Friends by the same guy and have Kill em all and Straight White Male on my 'to-read' list). Literature is good shit, one of the best kinds of shit in this shit-filled world. Literature is one of the most important and breath-taking things in my life.

Sunday, 9 December 2018

War and Pieces

Anger. Frustration. Resentment. Boy, do I know these feelings. I know what it feels like to be so choked up on rage, to feel constantly at battle with others who 'don't get it.' I know what it feels like to walk around pissed off and tense and snapping at everyone you see online and offline. Which is why I know it's a waste of time.

Sunday, 2 December 2018


I've been a big Prince fan ever since my father introduced me to his 1984 movie, Purple Rain. Before that I didn't quite understand the musical sophistication of his work, although I did enjoy a few songs from the lovely 'For You', his first album which was not so well received due to a sound not acquired to the mainstream. Otherwise all the albums prior to Purple Rain seemed too sexually provocative and controversial.

Wednesday, 28 November 2018

The Frustrations of Being an Artist

Everybody in the arts business - be it music, writing, drama, film, painting and the like - struggles. Even once you're making a successful living it's a struggle. We're constantly facing criticism and judgement. Some of us want to produce more than we are able to. It always seems like there are so many ideas and not enough time.

Saturday, 24 November 2018

Theon Greyjoy: The Tragic Traitor

Oh Theon. He is one difficult character within the Game of Thrones universe and a character that stirs up a lot of debate among fans. Is he a treacherous arsehole who deserved what he got? Has he managed to repent his sins? Is he a tragic character that was wrongly abused? Should Jon have killed him?

Saturday, 17 November 2018

Are Personality Disorders Real?

The NHS website describes a person with a personality disorder as 'someone who thinks, feels and behaves differently to the average person.' However, I have a few issues with this. Firstly, what is 'the average person'? Don't we all have problems and difficulties? Is there any such thing as one standard metric for average normality? Also, personality disorders tend to involve 'abnormal' character traits and thought patterns. But again, sometimes I look through these and think 'don't loads of people feel like this?'

Sunday, 11 November 2018

Acceptance is the key.

Life is a series of disappointments with a few glimmers of hope and joy sprinkled in. When I was younger I remember being told the story of Pandora's box; the gods left her a box and told her not to open it - she did, obviously, and out flew war, poverty, sickness, evil, and all kinds of nasty things, and then right at the bottom flew out a dove of hope.