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Friday, 12 June 2020


I have been dying my hair since 2012 -- that's eight years of CHEMICAL TORTURE -- but no, really, it's been pretty fun. I do love changing up my styles, and have blogged a few times about my hair. This article is kind of 'expanding' on some of my other posts, showing lots of pictures and detailing my journey through hair-dying overtime.

My hair is currently dark blue (from dark brown hair; bleached blonde and then dyed blue). Despite all the dying, my hair (thankfully) hasn't all fallen out. The picture on the right is my hair in February 2020. (By the way, blogger is super awkward with picture placements so my apologies in advance for some of them being at odd angles.)

For permanent dying, I usually use schwarkopf, and for semi-permanent, I use directions, adore, and/or crazy colour (I like to mix). I'm not going to write which dyes I've used specifically unless necessary, as I tended to mix dyes and can't remember which ones I specifically used each time. But those are the brands I've used. I mostly dye my hair myself, but have had friends/relatives do it a few times for me. I prefer doing it myself just because I like doing my own hair, but it can be useful having someone else go at it, especially those parts at the back. I mainly buy hair products from Paks Cosmetics, an AMAZING shop for afro-hair products.

Wednesday, 10 June 2020

Movie Review: Circle

No opening credits, just a camera pan of a bunch of people standing in a circle, on separate red pods. Some of them disappear suddenly by falling off or stepping off. Worse than Game of Thrones; a character I liked died within minutes. What a movie. (Spoilers ahead.)

Monday, 8 June 2020

The Internet Is Terrifying


We all know that Big Tech GAFA (aka Google, Amazon, Facebook, and Apple) are watching us. I've been pretty paranoid about the internet and compromising of personal data for some time now. Google probably knows me better than I know myself.

Tuesday, 2 June 2020

Oh My Amazon.

It is so hard not to buy products from Amazon. They are cheap and apt at delivering fast products. Anything you want can be brought to you within days. Not to mention, they gave me the platform to publish my own books for free. Amazon sure are a trooper.

Thursday, 21 May 2020

Hypnotherapy Eased my Arachnophobia

Content warning: to those who struggle with a fear of spiders, this post will be discussing them as well as referring to t and d spiders. No potentially frightening or harmful images will be shown, only safe cartoon images.

For most of my life, a fear of spiders has plagued me. I couldn't bare to think or talk about them without shuddering or shrieking. I viewed them as evil, deadly creatures that were out to get me or potentially eat me, and if I saw one had to kill it instantly.

Wednesday, 15 April 2020

Gone With the Wind is the Perfect Movie

Scarlet O'Hara may be one of the most vindictive, selfish, spoiled, narcissistic, irresistibly charming anti-heroines written in cinematic history. Perhaps without her, there'd be no Cersei Lannister, or Regina George, or Amy Dunne. She and her contemporaries are the perfect examples of 'toxic femininity'. But more than this; she is compelling, controversial, and absolutely stunning to watch, the embodiment of this incredible movie.

Friday, 3 April 2020

Understanding Mental Illness

Depression is more than sadness.
Anxiety is more than worrying.
Bipolar is more than mood swings.
OCD is more than 'tidiness.'
ADHD is not 'being hyperactive.'
Addiction is not 'enjoying something'.

And most psychopaths are not serial killers - in fact, many are relatively harmless if you don't piss them off.

Saturday, 21 March 2020

It's Perfectly Okay Not to Be a Feminist

...and equally okay to self-identify as a feminist. However, many feminists (similarly to political activists and religious fundamentalists) insist upon those around them also becoming feminists. This is because whenever a person is part of a group that holds strong, core principals, part of those principals is to inevitably bring other people into the fold. I can describe it as similar to whenever I insist those around me watch Game of Thrones (which is my personal 'religion'). When we care passionately about something, and believe it to be a force for good in the world, it is only natural to want others to join in.

Friday, 24 January 2020

So, here we are.

My name is Zarina. It's a Persian name, originally, meaning 'golden.' It also means 'queen' in various translations. Common in the Arabic, Indian, Russian and Middle-Eastern parts of the world. Not so much in the UK.

I've self-published five books. I remember 2015; sitting in my room, crying and drinking alcohol, feeling like I was going insane. Perhaps we're all insane at seventeen.

Sunday, 29 December 2019

2019 Thoughts

As the end of the year approaches, one may as well find the time to reflect. This has been the best year I've had in, well, a long time. A lot of that has to do with finally feeling fulfilled in what I'm doing, and being taken more seriously as an artist.

Monday, 9 December 2019

THIRD NOVEL COMING SOON! (5th published work)

Things have been non-stop for me since self-publishing my fiction and poetry in 2018. I've since had an article published in the i newspaper; have a mailing list (click here to join and get free book downloads), sold copies of my poetry books at poetry events in London, had my books reviewed on book blogs and swapped interviews with other authors and bloggers. 

A friend from uni has helped me out with various marketing things such as setting up my mailing list and finding me links to school workshop agencies. I'm learning a lot and am still only at the beginning, but proud of what I've accomplished with all the support along the way. Here's the blurb for my upcoming young-adult fiction novel, Around Midnight.

The harder you love, the higher the stakes.

Jazz is everything to Megan Hollis. When her hands clasp the saxophone, melodies flow with each breath.

Music carries her from Copperwood to London, with university on the horizon. Set on attending London’s prestigious School of Jazz, all elements of her life harmonize.

Then she meets Vincent Turner, the mysterious guy with a dangerous reputation. Intoxicated by his possessive charms, Megan’s love shifts from melodic bliss to a dissonant nightmare. 

While the future promises stardust dreams, her new relationship takes a turn for the worse. Megan becomes caught between what she wants and what everyone believes is best for her.

Will Megan learn to dance to the beat of her own rhythm?


Wednesday, 20 November 2019

Daenerys and Walter White: Same Characters, Different Shows

Daenerys Targaryen and Walter White are two of the most compelling, well-written anti-heroes in TV history in my not-so-humble opinion. They also star in two of the world's greatest TV shows. In the last episode of Thrones, I thought about how incredible Daenerys is as a character. She's brilliant, brave, and strong, but also arrogant, ruthless, and dangerously single-minded. She and Walter represent the ultimate bad and good that lies in us all.