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Monday, 10 April 2017

'Don't give up on life'

Contains potentially upsetting imagery involving self-harm. 

A few months ago I had a dream in which I was in a house, and this Oriental middle-aged man was talking to me. He said ‘Zarina, you’re doing very well, but sometimes, there is pressure. Don’t let the bazooka bite you.’ (Along those lines; dreams tend to not make sense). Then there was this Rottweiler dog next to us growling.



During a recent blood test I had this Oriental middle-aged male doctor did the test. He was very friendly and cheerful and said he liked my hair (but then everyone likes my hair, haha). When I rolled up my sleeves he looked at the scars on my arms from self harming and looked sad, and said he sees so many young people doing that. He said to me ‘you’re a deep thinker, that’s why you do stuff like this. You’re seeking something more to life – not religion, spiritualism. You’re wondering why we’re here, why humans are here, and what the purpose of living is.’ I was stunned; I’d barely said two words to this guy. He told me he could see through people, he could tell if a marriage was going to last; he could see who was spiritually searching and who was indifferent. But the most important thing to me he said was ‘don’t give up on life.’

‘Don’t give up on life. Keep seeking. You’ll find it.’

I was staring at him with this stunned expression and he laughed and said ‘you’re not only here for a blood test are you?’ (And he said I should stop self-harming).

And this is why I believe that we’re all connected, and that everything happens for a reason.


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